Changing my opinion of change...

So I said that change is good, a few blog posts ago, but I changed my mind. Sometimes change is not so good. Finally after two years, Opry Mills reopened and I was disappointed...to say the least. The flood came through, destroyed the mall and it took a long time for it to be rebuilt, but I never considered that it would be reborn. When I walked in the door today, I saw some new stores and didn't see some of the old ones I was looking forward to seeing. It's new now and it's different and I'm not so sure how much I like it, but there's nothing I can do about it now. Or before. Or at all really. I can only remember the past as it was, adjust to the new changes in the present, and anticipate with all certainty that there will be new ones in the future. Actually, I don't want to change my opinion of change. I'm grateful for it. Life would be so boring if it didn't exist.

Create Post

When I logged into write a blog post today (hi it's me again, yes I said the last post was in fact my last post, but it's the internet not tablets of stone.), I saw the heading at the top of the page said "Create Post." Create. I like that word, and while I don't necessarily like the word "post," it's come to symbolize something vastly different as the saying of yore (you know, "dumb as a post"). It has come to symbolize a message placed in cyberspace for so many people to read, weigh in on, or not, but either way for people to read. I started out writing with this irrational fear of failure and the real fear has been not even trying. I did in fact say that I felt the winds of change blowing in and that I was no longer going to be using this blog, but I still need to create ways for people to find likely joys in unlikely places. I still need to share my experiences as a human being so that people can read what's written here and think "yeah, that was my experience too. I'm not alone." I need to hear what others think about what 's written here and weigh in on it too. I'm not the only one with joys or sorrows to share. That and, I really missed connecting with day to day life. I started my other blog (by the way it's www.musiccitydreaming.blogspot.com) to chronicle my desire to break into screenwriting -- the ups, the downs, the yesses, the no's (oh so many no's, but that's the business) the dreams and the reality. I didn't think I needed to continue talking about how to brighten your corner of the world or take some time brightening someone else's.

What I want to contribute now to the world, is my words. They've been true to me, as true to me as I have been to them, but they've remained hidden from the world and that is no way to share. So I will continue to create posts, here and also on my other blog -- The Journey of a Thousand Miles -- as long as I can (or until I get tired of maintaining two blogs). But I'm not sure I'll get tired of it, I love to write and even though I may not be publishing, I am always creating. I'd might as well be making some posts while I'm at it.